It has been a long time since I have posted. But I thought it only appropriate that I post today! I just got off the phone with Ben. It was wonderful. But it made me miss him more. I have written 2 posts about him on my facebook so I will post them below.
ALONE
Looking out the window, I see cloudy skies
No shining stars
A cold air blows and sends chills up my spine
I close the window
I see lights from a distance, creating shadows
Yet i remain by my window
Alone, waiting for the sun to break through the
clouds and bring the light and warmth of summer.
Among the cloudy skies, strong winds bend trees as they blow
a cold dark night without a soul in sight.
and yet again I find myself inside. DRY.
But searching for a raincoat.
As I step through the doorway to brave the darkness,
I feel a single raindrop.
Then, two, three, four, a drizzle.
Now an unavoidable thundering downpour
and I am alone
under the pouring rain without a raincoat.
I tried to avoid it
I tried to outrun it
I tried to stay so busy I wouldn't notice it.
But now I am wet with loneliness.
Cold and Drenched with thoughts of you.
I miss you! Everything makes me think of you! Come home soon:) Life is better with you!
THE GREAT DAYS ARE THE WORST
Did I intrigue you with my title?
The worst days are definately the worst as well. But somehow it suprises me that the best days are the worst too!
You see...the good days are the easy days! The good days are the days that I am busy. That I go to bed tired. I drift to sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.
The worst days are the days that stink. When everything goes wrong from the moment you wake up until you go to bed. When your drier is broken so you have to blowdry your uniform, you lock your keys in your house and you get lost on the way to the meeting you need to be on time for. Those are the days when you just want to vent to someone. But not just anyone. The one who is always there. At the end of the day his chest is where you place your head!
But suprisingly the best days the days that are the happiest are the worst too. When you get to sleep in and you find your puppy snuggling with you. When you go shopping and find the best jeans that fit you perfectly. When you stand in church and you worship. I mean truly worship. When you go for a good long run and feel good at the end. And in the evening watching the best movie you have seen in a long time. The kind that makes you cry tears of joy! Yes those are the days when you are reminded. None of it means a thing without his chest to place your head on at the end of the day!
Life is better with HIM!
I miss you Ben, come home soon!
So I thought it was appropriate to post them on Valentines. I sent him a box of gifts for Valentines. Sheets and a pillow for his bed. My pillowcase that smells like me. More of his favorite soap and deodorant that smells like him and a new ipod with songs that make me think of him. The title of his ipod when you plug it into the computer is JES MISSES BEN.
A lot has happened since the last time I wrote. and I can't find the camera cord to post pics of all of it. I went to Arkansas for 2 weeks for an Army recruiting school. While there I went to the Clinton Library, Hot Springs, and Graceland. We went to Graceland and the Civil Rights Museum and BBKings on Beale Street on my Birthday. I got to see Becky, Shane and Makayla Mann while I was in Little Rock. They are stationed there for a few months. It was wonderful to see them. Then I got to go to Vegas. I saw 5 of my old friends from AIT (combat medic school) -moldenhauer, pagac, hubbard, and khaled. and Of course Jill Stevens- Miss Utah. We watched the Miss America pageant. Jill did not win over the hearts of the judges. But she did win over the heart of America. She was voted America's choice. Not many will remember who won miss america this year but many of us will remember who didn't. I had a lot of fun visiting with friends and now I am back at home working hard. Hopefully I will only post a few more times before Ben is back home!
